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power of prayer I am praying now at night when I retire to bed usually around twelve thirty or one a.m. Lori asleep on the couch where she feels the most comfortable with the air conditioner instead of the sometimes stagnant heat of the bedroom So strange to not have any rain this year but I pray for forgiveness to those I had hated and despised for their ways of being and in doing this I realize that when all this is finished that I will have to forgive myself odd to think of myself as one that needs to be forgiven but I blame myself for so many things as if I was so hero like and infallible I am human i am weak and lastly I try to be humble But even today Loris advice was sound and again I did not listen to it I realize that this is trust and trust with women is not something that I had ever found endearing or strong dates back to being abandoned a few times by accident choice and cancer However it was not their fault and I had my own agendas then the fued is over Lori is my partner my soul-mate I just have to pray to take that negative image away trust her more trust myself more take more risk move out of my comfort zones because this is change growth ..........
11:24 a.m. - 2005-08-09
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