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funny today I got Autumn again seems to pull up my name and assign me to this over by the booking computer and scanner I sweep my card under the laser and here I am I like Autumn the computer there are three other people here writing the library is busy listening to Happy House now from Siouxsie I used to listen to this when I was anxious in the long gone days of isolation in the country long lonely walks through the woods and canoe rides on still waters searching for that illusive something as if I could quickly turn and see my other self like a cat chasing its tail ............. I feel anxious and down not sure why just tired of life sometimes depression comes and goes I am on Wellbutrin and other meds to keep me level but sometimes it just is there but I am learning to not fear it like i used too and no more medicating with alcohol or drugs all this does is compound my problems I went down to the static engines and train cars the kids have smashed the windows out so ever so often there is a large dark hole on the side of the graffitied thing and just above the bottom edge of the window I could see Roger the town drunk I used to live with him and others at Cornerstone apartments He looked like hell sitting on this burned up smashed up train car like hes going to Montreal or something thought that would have been me if I had kept drinking .........
11:01 a.m. - 2005-10-11
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