orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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a glimpse into Stevens life
Lori is short five one and three quarters she likes to say and fine boned
she has a cute little face and sparkling eyes behind her little oval glasses the big prominent recognizable thing about her is her big eighties hair she has dyed it this plum red colour and her hair is fine so with the help of the morning ritual with an ancient blow dryer and curling iron and some kind of hair spray coaxes it to stand up and out with her trademark bangs over her eyes because i love the eighties i loved the hair and the smiling face ha ha still do when we are waiting for the bus and i am talking to her i am six foot one inch and weigh two hundred and fifty pounds (by now) wear old dark brown work boots and scufy blue jeans an ancient shirt that has simulated mummy wrap on it T shirt that is it was for a computer game promo my old green koolah jacket that i am kind of proud of now its got history like me people pay to get stuff that looks distressed hell mine went through distressing times with me and it still keeps me dry in the rain and slightly warm in the cold and i have that Ace of Spades thing happening on the back its all chipping off too i have a big gut well its big enough for me but this only happened after i turned forty and my wallet chain i bought at the skater store West 49 in the mall it wasnt that long ago i had my hair dyed black i wore a black shirt and pants and painted my fingernails black too crazy eh?? i got photos sitting in my e-mail that my ladyfreind took of me They are of a wild man i look up to no good my hair is so long i mean i used to have a shaved head and only a goatee now the goatee is long and the sideburns are wiggin out if i had it my way i would shave it all off well keep my hair short but i have this little chin and this big long nose big sloping back forehead presently i have been likened to a wooly mammoth and bigfoot and a relative of a certian insurance commercial on television that has cave men for its spokes persons not being blessed with good looks made me sad for years i didnt realize its the persons character that makes the person i hadnt developed back then never had that self esteem like i do now now i am a character truly and i like myself and its taken a long hard road to even write this of course Lori helped me out so much she just encouraged never put me down never harassed me or bitched at me shot from the hip straight the way it is probably the first woman in years that i respect i was so bitter for a long long time when i was in a relationship had such an attitude against women especially strong independent ones my parents split when i was twelve and it took this long to get over it my mom left we stayed with dad dad drank and slept a lot until he met his new wife to be a very nice woman for him mom found a nice man for her everyone in the end was very happy except for me hated anyone that cared about me fuck off and sit in your own corner was my primal attitude bad eh????????? i am NOT that way anymore i am growing and glad about this Lori makes a lot of decisions that turn out to be good ones for us in the end and sometimes she even listens to me when i have a grand plan damn its almost twelve again i keep doing this but i was writing a long e-mail to a freind in Toronto well must go but i made up that little poem for you hope you like it its not supposed to make any sense sometimes occasionally i just like the way the words can be pressed together like water over/around stones in a stream late and i must be going ..O..
11:28 p.m. - 2007-01-04
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