orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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day that wasnt
so that was it worn out
called in cant work today cant bend over and tie my own damn shoes and last night no two nights past crying about a dead childhood cat what the hell was that all about like looking into my own face and seeing myself but not who am I everythings backwards in dreams i try not to remember those try to forget what they even try to represent to me have to go back to bed now took my meds will sleep again work today I will be okay but the scale of depression is bottomless and the distance clear is so far cannot believe the ache of the soul its much more then any physical pain its something I had thought i had buried since childhood something I kept buried but am not burying it anymore and thus it comes at all hours and moments notice so I just cry now and its happening more and more its frightening to be not in control during those brief moments cant let anyone see me god Im so tired
2:28 a.m. - 2008-06-13
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