orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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my life in a story to date
sunshine is upon us at the end of the summer season all because of the jet stream pulled south in the american west the dry ranges the open lands
now we have sun and crickets bidding their fare well song so sad this time of year and then the burst of colour and cold foggy mornings so very beautiful blissful warm hot leaves to gather and jump in for children the winds the rains the clouds the dramatic breathtaking days of difference I am looking forward to them all its been up and down as you may have read already the meds keep me from swinging too far but now they want to kick me off of all say Im healed and A - Okay god back to the craziness again the brilliant creative moments though from the right side but the crashs the depressions the severe cravings for addictions awful especially at this age my work is great its sane holding even though someone had a breakdown and is hospitalized in the mental hospital all the stress the pace we do we jump through loops and hoops as we do like trained poodles the show must go on ha ha ha I love the sun And Loris child is here a teen ager just very intelligent and athletic and fair and sensitive someone who will better the world I am a male figure to her her own father is crazy and mean and abusive well I had my own troubles too but i have gone through much therapy and need much more im trying though she has a brain and a half very fast quick and limber and beautiful she told lori she loves me all that i fear someone getting close Lori did that and now this one Chloe my own flesh and blood is close but we have a space created with history she is coming soon too and I am very excited by this Chloe is very creative and writes plays guitar and has tatoos draws tatoos she is sometimes into the darkness of life like I was and moody like I am and my birth mother but We go for walks like Loris little one downtown and we talk and look at things I am not running away anymore I was gone for a long time from Chloes life four till eleven and then till fourteen till now sixteen chloes mother and i are in touch with each other very much now and like each other and write back and forth chloes mother is very smart i guess i'm smart too father troubles except Loris dad he is the best ol grumpy but very smart and he loves his kids and is always there always hes battling cancer right now i like him and am close to him we watch movies together he picks them they are very cool movies and he explains the history and importance of the movies in a way that I never saw before Lori is social like my father who died of a stroke in his eighties i was shy of people but tried to be a snob hah they all could see through me though i was such a jerk anyway the sun is shinning things are okay im still alive My cats keep me going too at night they come for comforting and I put my arm around them and they cuddle up and purr and I pet them and fall asleep Maybe they are coming to me to comfort me I think thats more like it
12:04 p.m. - 2008-08-26
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