orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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Looking after things...
living in the Inn or Motel or whatever lovely old retro place NOT hiding putting out my number
then some come forward from before from the past smiling freindly hmm what do they want?? waiting for the question then a meeting with family but its tangled so messed up Just phone ahead get in the car but no there is this morasse about it all sticky and oozing wow so I wait I set it up for them to arrive and wait and give up No message no call to say they cannot come or are coming so Im off to the library like I always do Cruel you say?? if the world has no discipline If it was all a test to make me sit and miss the soup kitchen so I dont have a meal and then the library??? Im too old at this game My end was together I can hustle when I want too and Im sorry if I have small patience at times its just my nature I have so much other good parts about me At fifty its too small to sweat it or get a resentment that they just could get it together to arrive and if they did arrive when I was walking here then well what am I to do I gave them from morning till two thirty almost there are issues on the other end between two people there something Im familar with and dealt with long ago and although the switchs are thrown to annoy me it does not greatly send current down the line I enjoyed my walk down the hill and am here writing like normal Work was crazy again payday tommorrow I can buy food and go shopping for a dress shirt and pants that fit now that Im not eating so much as before and Ive been sober long enough to return to something of sanity for the moment Do I feel sorry that Im not waiting forever?? No I have a life I am important to myself and to them I gave it a reasonable amount of time and acted on a decision that Im comfortable with and Im going to pick up some new VHS movies to watch Last night it was Jack Kerouk and a program on Wolves in the Canadian Rockies in Banff park a place I visited with family long ago the scientists female students noticed that a female was the alpha in the pack something they did not pay heed too I know females can be alpha Not just wolf packs but human packs too anyway thats it for todays moment no poetry today but a valueable notation to sometimes take action for the self after some consideration
2:24 p.m. - 2011-03-09
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