orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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Krystallize
should shouldnt it like my glasses coveted and eventually forgotten in pants pockets on the floor hearing them break like brittle bones underfoot one night to check the stars the empty parking lot see how many cars and trucks are there.. still work on one arm just one portion fractured and no money to replce them OR the bike tires one mountian bike one eighties racing bike tube im hoping both bikes given to me street and garage orphans and I use these bikes put the klicks on them to get around errands trips to chill at the dock and hill for a view now Im walking with my torn pantleg fluttering too I have to sew them up with my broken glasses and my needle and thread just like my mama taught me listening to music takes my mind off the ridiculous way Im living spending all my cash on addictions and helping an ex out why help out the ex because maybe I want a mourner or two should I die of idiotness over winter when depression and the long northern nights drag on when weather and atmosphere trigger shit in emotions and feelings and the hungry ghosts of longing and regret come knocking to cheer one up that and fucking gin and pain killers but so what I dont have anyone now I can get wasted in my room with my television my telephone my empty mini fridge and the haunted bathroom and the rather comfortable bed and listen to my music over and over on my headphones trying to figure out what route I took to get this hopelessly lost nothing to do but admit Im lost and sit here for awhile until I fathom a plan its going to take a shit load of work to get the hell out of wherever here is Even if I kinda like it even if it feels like home.......
12:19 p.m. - 2011-08-11
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