orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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was there and stil am
i remember long ago staying with my freind who did drugs overdosing hovering at the edge of breathing and not breathing and I would sit and shake them slap their hands bring them around again and again leaning over them to see if they had stopped breathing hearing them suck in air sometimes coughing and choking on their saliva not wanting to get them into trouble not being able to talk to anyone because I was trusted and the others were outside that trust feeling like a fugitive but they always came around and were their old selves after awhile
But I still sleep and see them with their mouths slack their eyes rolled up in their heads looking worse then death feeling death near not having anyone to hold my hand or to be there to share the watch so many I have done this with what does this what has it cost me my eyes tell all my spirit feels ragged and torn would God forgive me all those whom are now gone through drink or drug would saying anything change whose lives whose lives are they their jaded world encircling their arms they walk the edge of the great long fall and marvel at the beauty of it all
11:36 p.m. - 2005-05-01
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