orgami's Diaryland Diary

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FIND

SO OFTEN I WOULD OVERDOSE
DEATH IDEALIZATION
EVERYONE WORRIED
STOPPED EATING ONCE
WAS DOWN TO ONE HUNDRED AND SIXTY
POUNDS
FULL OF HURT AND PAIN
ANGER RAGE SADNESS NOTHINGNESS
NOW EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY IS APART
SEPARATE OR GONE ON
SPIRIT WORLD MAYBE
NOT HERE ANYWAY TO TALK TOO
NOW THAT I AM MORE TAME
MORE LEARNED MORE AGED
AND THEY ARE GONE
CAN ONLY PRAY AND HOPE THAT MAYBE
SOMEWHERE IT MATTERS
FEEL SO BOTTOMED OUT LATELY
FEEL LIKE CRYING
CANT GET ON TO CHAT
LORI AT HOME

JUST LET THIS BE I GUESS
FEEL THIS IS PART OF BEING ALIVE
THIS PAIN FILLED ANGER SADNESS
FEELING I FEEL LIKE SINKING
LIKE NEVER GETTING UP
BUT I DO I ALWAYS DO

CHLOE NEEDS HER DADDY
I NEED MY CHLOE
LORI NEEDS ME
MY FREINDS NEED
DIARYLAND NEEDS
ME

I AM NOT THAT BAD A PERSON
I AM NOT THAT BAD A MAN
I AM A GOOD PERSON
I HAVE MY FAULTS MY WEAKNESES
MY HUMANESS
I AM TRYING TO GET WELL
I AM TRYING TO FIND MY WAY

11:30 p.m. - 2005-05-01

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