orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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feel human
i dreamt i would be happier when I was younger when I would be an adult and find my way in the confusion I lived the emotional war kept alive the snipers and landmines the burned out safe places the stark beauty when the words were rested and everyone was getting along rare beautiful moments where there was no exchange of brutal language threats denials and abandonments and here I am feeling so open now therapy does this to me I feel Like crying all the losses I am not an awful person I am a good man at times I try to be yes I have my faults my uneven view of the world but I am not creating more havoc then some I try to be sensitive and not so judgmental Oh well I will eventually learn to love myself again be safe in my own skin not fear people that all people are out to hurt me like in the past that room where my heart trtuly is is so full of stuff and I have to go through it all slowly to get to the truth i want the truth I want to be whole and to feel emotions and feelings to know what they really are not second guessed ideals all the people I leaned on in the past and cried with are on with their lives they still get in touch me with me now and again and ever so often during my travels I may see them and wish them well do the usual one minute exchange i have been through so much still am going through but I cannot stop now no turning back no dropping out even now I have all you people who are knowing me it seems so much because maybe it is much human human human human and I am...
11:19 p.m. - 2005-05-01
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