orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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family and alive
family Ours is ka-put! I mean my brother and sisters We who are left no one relates to each other anymore last time we were together was thanksgiving back in eighty six or seven We got drunk and played Janis Joplin really loud we all felt like cheap actors or at least I did everyone pretending at their best that nothing was wrong that everything was going to go on forever
But it didnt and now there is no way all three of us or four would get together My mom died and wanted to have no service My dad died and only wanted to be cremated with no service they didn't want the pretend the servile service of people paying tributes to them both did have gatherings though in honour of their being But I wasnt there I have my photo albums of them some few odd photos but its them as I remember them Do I feel sad that none of us can visit with our new partners? sleep over do the family togetherness thing?? its gone all of that I have Lori my new family and Chloe and Lori has her Ataya and Chloe will meet Lori and Ataya will meet me in a few days time so there is a new beginning for us at this old age My brother is a carpenter and my sister a nurse at the hospital both have wifes and husbands and big beautiful houses they have worked to have I used to want everyone to get along and was the mediator I thought but nothing can save it so I let it go but there are still days when I see other familys out for dinner or at the beach together that I have this tinge of regret for us but I love my new life away from the hometown I love North Bay I Love Lori my latest day to day of my sobriety so much to be thankful for so much celebration to be alive ...
12:01 p.m. - 2005-06-28
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