orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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past past present
going over my photo album the few pictures that never got thrown out or destroyed by my throwing them into the fire or just plain losing them somehow it went from boxes to one carry all shoulder bag faces of people not looking into the camera I try to read their eyes and then the head on shots some not laughing at all but looking anxious trying to tell me to hurry up and take the picture there are many of these Chloe sitting on the tool box in front of the sixty four chevrolet that my freind restored She is looking down intentionally not posing or smiling for me In the background is Ray getting out of his truck In three months since that photo was taken he will roll his truck in a drunken drive home and die of injuries Here is my mother sitting in the basement of the house we lost in the bankrupsy Als face hidden but smiling he was happy most days and still is my mother not yet destroyed by cancer oh thank god I just found this note I thought I lost it yah just trying to think about everything again which makes no sense try to let this go and just live even though its stressful right now to be in the moment not in the past that is my chore also today .............
10:44 a.m. - 2005-07-27
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