orgami's Diaryland
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knights return Hero and trickster
well I had a good meeting with Lori when I got back home We talked and sorted through all the hoopla and it went well she does not trust women because of her mother (looney maniac evil woman) some of the stories are hard to believe what that woman has done and Lori just hung out with her father and lived with him after the parents split so she just hung out with male companions Anyway as long as I am her main man then her male freinds can come and go to play cards or chat and coffee I can deal with this I had before in my previous womanships (my term for co occupation of same space) Maybe cell-mate would be more like it when I look back Ha ha No I like Lori and Love her and she Loves me Its just that I have been abandoned so much by so many I have issues like anyone anyway I just got off MSN messenger with like four people that I know My daughter included I have to type like hell and keep clicking between screens to keep up with them but its possible I just did it all a few minutes ago when I was venting I didnt need to be so mean spirited about it because I have a lot of non-agression If i was only more secure But I am getting more secure as I get more in touch with myself more meditation More empathy more looking people in the eyes when I talk with them and letting them talk and actually listening i just get fretful and then the fear comes up and the anger comes out But you are so Correct Chaos I am like everyone I have my bad days and I have my good days Thanks for the support You dont know how much that meant to me anger exhausts me now it used to fuel me but now its just a poison but I am learning thank god I dont know everything like I th0ught I did a few years ago god to think that I may change a bit its so refreshing to have hope for this for me Today I Love myself I make errors I am not totally right I can voice my concerns I can hold my tongue I am above all human and trying to be humble ...O...
11:35 p.m. - 2006-02-12
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