orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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trinkets and beads
slept all day today returned in my dreams to my hometown in the summer forgotten how many miles it was over the hills and across creeks and swamps to the nearest large town my parents were alive my freinds mom was alive my old bycyle was still in the shed out back woke up to the sound of the television in the living room and someone scrapping snow on ashphalt outside the tri-plex or next door spun up from the dream and felt remorse and sadness that i never spent more time with those people or places i was so hyper or sound asleep half the time could never sit still for a proper visit with anyone always had to be moving around and then it was tired and depressiong that would make me sleep all day long but as i sat up and got ready to come out and make some mid afternoon coffee i remembered our party we had here and how happy it was for everyone How young and alive and vibrant the kids were They helped out and washed the dishes remember and that is usually my job so I was very thankful to them for this Lori was still napping on the couch I made coffee in our brand new super white clean coffee maker the old brown dirty coffee maker we bought at the second hand store is sitting on the floor next to the new garbage container in the kitchen opened up the fridge and am still amazed at all that food in there made coffee and sat on the couch with Lori talked to her about my dreams made her a coffee havent been outside all day and that all happened hours ago looked through my computer for the deleted file for the photos but they are long gone Ladyfreind came up from downstairs and had a dinner with us too we all watched the funniest commercials for 2006 two shows it was funny some of them Tweet sat on the back of the couch with her head stuck through the vertical curtains watching the neighbour across the street push snow off his driveway with an electric snow shovel checked on this computer and it has NERO on it and a whole bunch of other programs for CD burning so when we get our high speed light our ladyfreind will help us get this cd player going or give us one from downstairs to work so we can download music i'm still excited about this machine Read about Saddam so thats over with New Years tommorrow night yawn Just another day for me i dont care i have my bus pass provided for me from the shop so i can catch the Pinewood to work instead of the Campus Special because it doesnt start to run again until the eighth of the new year another yawn been yawning since i got up all that turkey and pumpkin pie and cheese ball and crackers coffee should have been waking me up some but its not doing what it usually does hah one of the big things at the party that Lori liked to do was run into the bathroom and bring out my bar of soap for people to smell Its from the Bulk Barn in the mall and its Carbolic Soap It has a very strong antiseptic odour the party goers had a good laugh about it and someone commented that it smelt like dog soap for fleas that one made me laugh too I love the stuff i usally buy Pears soap from england but this is cheaper and i like it better Somewhere in my past i used this soap and fell in love with it My other favourite soap is a yellow bar that is used by old time peoples to wash floors and pre scrub clothes the stuff has been around for ages and ages my mom used to use it and keep it under the sink in the kitchen why all this talk about soap?? well only three years ago i was a hopeless drunk living in that pirate room you keep reading about and i wouldnt shower and the alcohol would seep out of me to be blunt i stank and now i have a shower every day I got on the bus a few days ago to go to Bingo and this guy got on the bus at the terminal I was daydreaming enjoying my nice daydreamind bus ride and he makes his way to the back of the bus and sits on the other side of the back seat Damn I thought why come all the way back here why not sit way up there where there were tons of empty seats He kind of had a stare about him He was only sitting there for awhile when I began to notice the strong odour of urine coming from his side of the bus So I looked over at him and noticed that his stare is that that comes with a mental disability who looks afer him i thought where does he live who is his worker?? what boarding house does he live in?? was he going to the mall?? my daydream was over it was a thinking trip before Bingo now When I was in the pirate house another old timer drank like a fish and would pass out in front of the television on the second floor landing in the easy boy all taped up and torn up and he would piss his pants That and he never showered or changed his clothes so afer a while the smell from the second floor would be ungodly But that was nothing compared to the first thing in the morning smell He would wake up sober and come out around daylight to watch CNN My room was up the stairs around the corner on the third floor He collected cigarette butts from off the street in the tin cans that sit outside establishments now or anywhere else that he could find them and he would crush the tobacco out of them and roll them up in the yellow pages of a phone book and chain smoke these until he ran out around noon The smoke was thick and oily and would pour around the cracks in my door and around my old wooden door and wake me up the chair was just in front of the stair hallway leading up to me until i wrote the above i forgot about the cigarettes and the yellow pages rolling papers oh man i am so glad i live here with my clean smelling soap what happened to the old guy we kicked him out then i moved out he lived on the street drinking his way around sleeping on the benchs in the little park downtown even in the daytime eventually he had a big heart attack or stroke and was in the general hospital for months and now he is in the Pshchiatric hospital until they can figure out where to put him and look after him unless he comes out in the spring and drinks himself to death this time for good he was a wealth of history and information about this city and its many stories and i drank with him sitting on the couch on the second floor watching CNN with him we could look down from beside the chair through the big old windows to the busy parking lot and street or out of the big window in the door that lead to the fire escape watching the goings on at the Post Office or the hair Salon across from our corner i still see him around when we have meetings at the psych concerning the shop he comes to the meetings for the coffee and cookies like a few others what can i say alcohol is a killer and i have seen it eat many in the few years i have been here I wear cologne every now and again we dont have it at work because of the seizure issues and trigger issues for smells for the clients but when i go downtown or to the mall i spray it on i felt bad when i smelled because i was raised in a clean home but the booze had just dropped me into the hole and i was not leaving my alcohol to get out and it part of it was my mental illness just blinding me to just sit and rot i wouldnt take my medication and was staying up all day and night etc what else is there to know well this is starting out to be a good year compared to all of where i have come from its not bad at all ..O..
8:59 p.m. - 2006-12-30
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