orgami's Diaryland Diary

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somehow dreaming

2001
the year of psychiatric stays
personal starvation
a wish to die
and electro shock therapy

the following 365 days of
counting combinations of pills
minutes spent in aging doctors
offices relapses and hospital
admittance for overdoses

tackled by police and handcuffed
strapped to the stretcher
trying to put my fist through
the plexiglass window on the
psych ward strapped to another
board in the nighttime visit
to the sideroom

while around me lives melted
away like this years snows
drownings overdoses alcohol
broken hearts and lonliness

and somehow life persisted

i was given a new admittance
with responsibilities and
my conscience rebooted
what was left
were beautiful ruins i dream
in

labrynth under sacred stars
suffer of the primal scars

..O..

12:12 a.m. - 2007-01-08

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