orgami's Diaryland Diary

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from the Lagoon

work was work
fast fast and more fast

worked through lunch to
attempt to get things caught up

had my one thirty with the Dr!
she is an intelligent quick minded
woman

no one stole my unlocked bike

saw a cool store downtown
arts stuff
two women
one was rather taken back
by me the other was freindly

noted some interesting building
across the street from them

havent accessed the town
"moles" to see whats up on the
up and up

(No its not Mark)

close though...

Bills bills coming in

stumbling over them
fumbling over them

have to clear up this
mess soon

priorties all messed
up too
no wonder nothing is
getting accomplished

went through the papework
its all in neat orderly
piles

but now what?

anyway work is great
i like it there
challenging everyone else
has problems
etc etc

Boss is a quick team
driver but not a slave
driver If we are huskies
we love the run of it
during our time there
in the traces

Doc's gonna try to pull
records from Sam Chung in
Sudbury Ontario see if I
am an eplileptic

they took away my liscence
back in the day
and ive pretty well been on
medications for the most
part never had a seizure in
years

but when i had them they
were good ones
apparently i rattled and
rolled and fell of the bed

i remember the first one
it was like a great white light
just blinded me and this
feeling of falling off a
steep barn roof
or the apex of a roller coaster
first dive

it was like zero G's
then i wake up on the floor
or with someone hovering over
my face asking me the date
and my name etc etc

maybe i'm cured
hah

would never want to drive
take out a family of five
too too scary a though

leave that to the drunken
bastards and the cops who
should prevalenlty catch
them

Lori is at camp having
fun with her freinds

they wanted me to join
them but i have no bike lock
as of yet

and with the bills it may
be awhile yet

i have the painting to do
yet its almost finished
a nice loon painting
a little baby loon on the
back of mother i guess

tonight i shall finish
it

acrylic of course

a beautiful new lamp
that heats up everything
and drys the paint very
fast but gives me the
light for detailing

i am very lucky to have
people who help me
accumulate materials

and now

its just a matter of
motivation to paint

where upon in the past
i painted on crap
small fridge doors
and orange crate boxes
glued together

these peices exist out
there

one would think this
all came from the mind
of a peaceful content
person

and this would be true
in odd hours

must go and eat some
more food

must keep up my present
fat gut
why in gods name do i
hang on to the forty extra
pounds is beyond me

laziness
gluttony

perhaps

am i happy????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

No stressors to point to today
Well except bills
possibly work
maybe nightmares
that i dont tell the Dr
shit from long ago
freakin' ghosts
in my dreams

then again there is nothing
like the placid enjyoable ride
along the waterfront and down
to the dock to see the old
double hulled cruise ship
awaiting patrons of the lake

pedalling along
being out amongst the
creatures of society

and i ponder

what creature am I???

..O..

4:18 p.m. - 2007-06-18

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