orgami's Diaryland Diary

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..lawns..

everyone ate a hearty meal
and drank my pepsi
i have only so few left

Lori says its good Karma to
do good for others
to express your wealth by
giving and sharing

why was i ever so selfish

when i hitchiked to Toronto
(four hundred kilometres or
something like this..And a
few times i did this back
and forth...)

I got rides from the kindest
of people even a woman on a
couple of occasions

and in winter too getting to
some court dates or visiting
the rez miles upon miles away
snowing badly and very cold

yet a trucker slowed and picked
me up at a lonely intersection
from one secondary highway to
a major one Highway sixty nine
from Barrie to Sudbury along
the Georgian Bay way

gave me a burger and beers

surreal to think about it all
now that i never froze I would
have been very very very cold
though nothing open for miles
north I knew the highways well
from working for Bremar and
driving the one ton and towing
the compressor keeping up to
the line truck with the backhoe
on and the poles underneath
utility contracters were we

but back to the food and pops
everyone went away well fed

and so what a few pops
i readily played it well and
asked people and got them the
pop from the fridge and acted
as a waiter running out and
filling their plates with custom
orders they had television
trays and it was difficult to
move them because we were eating
around the two living room
couchs and the coffee table
watching the tube and talking
amongst ourselves

everyone is human
everyone has a life
everyone has problems
it takes hard work to
learn skills either to
live or to improve
onself

and its a learning skill
to not be so selfish
or to judge people
to not be obsessed
by something that may
be not good
toxic ideas attractions
environments

it takes skills to form
a group a gathering for
merit I finally feel
like i know a little of
these people

this is a more personal
thing these get togethers
out back on the deck
or inside

we used to have tons of
these things as a kid but
there was always alcohol
and it was mostly family
or work buddies in some form
or other

since leaving the Woodshoppe
too the people i used to work
there with have been very freindly
to me even more then when i
was there and i am more freindly
to them also

i never thought it would be so
difficult to just be real

i still have a lot of salvaging
to do in my soul
my heart still is black in places
but its nowhere near what it once
was

the days of no medications
of only drugs and alcohol
wandering around

now i am the host here chatting
with guests
laughing smiling
sharing a pop not some joint
or bottle of whiskey

not hiding in some room or
basement paranoid
watching as people unfolded
their strange worlds

and i went out today in black
with my blue bandana on my
forehead not covering my head
just a high band
and my new shades
my pirate shirt on

walking with a freind
to get other freinds
to bring here

well its late now
took my meds

time for more dreams

and i am glad
i have a good feeling
about having freinds over
and having less pops

isnt it nice to be offered
a refreshment
rather then wait to be
thirsty and get nothing

it rained on and off so much
today that the grass was
constantly wet so i cant
cut the lawn yet

maybe tommorrow if it stays
dry

will see

..O..

12:06 a.m. - 2007-07-01

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