orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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long blog about not much
I can feel the history of my now battered body losing its battle to my abuse neglect pushing winters chill through thin layers too poorly clad to think of spinal health and fingers Knees stuck in boot cut jeans just cotton weave and nothing more so now i ache even on the sunniest of days with crapped out hip and vertabrae that need coaxing to bend when I try to put on my socks in the morning and Im lucky some are seized with rods and cancers that flamed out portions of their systems missing this and that all the checks I avoid now blood test screening tube up the system to look around i disregard these things as I did the heed of cost the old men told me then in my glory days of stupid youth they with frozen fingers and rattling lungs who dropped off the map with massive coranaries and lungs full of bottled oxygen wheezing their last moments away already the silver NO white is growing in my goatee and moustache im still confused as I was at twenty sometimes I feel the sun like a cat in the window sometimes I bask sometimes I even swim my many medications to keep me stable not many but enough writing here this long blog today paragraphs piling up like cordwood for some cold nights when I'll need them go back and read them I am thankful for what I have today I have my few freinds My freinds here on diaryland (two or three at least) and other sites and some real So tired today Im not eating lately I want to be thin again this fat I greedily supped on who am I too be so fat when there are so many needy so self important So tired must go now must go
2:03 p.m. - 2008-07-15
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