orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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keeping the faith
wow dropping weight not eating much sleeping not too much either but in nice place s places
sunshine and the lake the dusk falling wlking to work catching the bus feeling alone and working today pick up meds say hello to freind feeling the energy vibing feel heartsick or sick to mystomach with this not eating and putting out a lot of actitivity why? why the dropping of weight fat is luxury fat is everyone else comfortable and I want to represent that I am not comfortable that I am stripped down even emotionally and the shoulder pain and back pain is very strong not to mention the heart pain facing feelings that I tried to avoid and holding it steady not running no shying away from them being in the now being in control crazy poet worker Im writing like crazy to freind and am going back on the meds the off meds is like going into the land to see a vision or something but its not a good thing sometimes its always powerful though my watch band hanging loosely on me have to tighten up the belt loving it as the fat drops away though like It was saved up happiness that I put on when I was sad and even though Im sad now I want to feel happy in a daring kind of new way this probably makes no sense at all but Im just a writer poet so thats that im okay though I love my new shoes my new shirt and sunglasses my long hair and long goatee and moustache my wild eyes they are so blue now that the sun is tanning the angles i just want to be loved want someone to hold me and love me and I never seem to find that always find cold people and I feel like Im freezing its cool this hard stressed out dieting away no sleep thing i wnt to lay on the beach and catch some sun just relax and not care about all my Identification lost my relationship fallen apart my job still hanging in and winter coming back again and summer and no great summer love or even this working one that I want to hang on too feel so good one minute and then horrible the next but Im not going to cry Im going to keep smiling because I believe
3:55 p.m. - 2010-06-07
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