orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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For Dorothy
said it was cancer come calling eating away your soul
the medicine to cure killing you the rest of the way and seven wrapped Christmas gifts under the trees Why didnt I bother calling blamed the cold lack of funds the five mile walk from Number Eleven you would have been there so we talked on the phone for all the bravado and falseness of it my fear just stole that final meeting and in all the white haired old women I see you are always turning up forever seventy I still keep all the negatives losing the photographs in moods and moves I still put up the tree and hang decorations but buried in the dark under my own limbs is the weight of the fallen years bending like snowfall I wonder what it was you wanted to give me how you picked it out wrapped it hoping I would show up like I always did my own selfish cancer eating me now the guilt the shame but its not about me its about others now but still it carrys well how we are shaped in the end by wind and faultlines by love fear all the escalations and explorations of the limitless place of escape Merry Christmas Mother .......
3:15 p.m. - 2010-11-22
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