orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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no bliss
I live in a dream and die day by day in this one
there is no significant great love but the thin veneer of here where Im starving for affection
having never learned the ordinary ways of how all others gather it and cast it aside I just hold on to a notion that someone is out there whom Ive not met yet but that is not real this is where Life as I require belies the false belief of holding on and having nothing yet I try and try even years later this creativeness is a boon and a bane for it soars in grand halls and whimpers in the cave how I just want a warm fire and someone whom loves me to lie beside but that is never to be not in this world so strange this place all the media all the books of such happy endings or hopeful gathering say what they will about the myth and fact of me i have my charms my jaggedness and if it is that dying alone is what I have like so many Ive known then so it is whom am i to challenge the will of God above holding on to fairytale make believe for all these years maybe the fire in the heart has to die to awaken is it not that in total darkness one can only then be aware of any light?? I do not know anything anymore
but I keep hoping and god its an ache that no drug can take
12:54 a.m. - 2011-01-05
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