orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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exhaustive study
I dont want to dream im back in moms kitchen or Dads kitchen I can see all the details I want to forget about those places Hear their voices waiting for them to start giving me hell for not coming to see them when they died I want to tell them why but we all know why and it just is sad sometimes Sometimes the happy endings keep coming back
I want to laugh I want to cry I want to get so drunk I might never wake up sometimes I just keep going like this because thats what people do I used to just sleep all the time until the dreams would drag me in and I would wake up in different years Now I just avoid them thank you very much Oh I know they will get me tonight I have to sleep or maybe not sometimes I get a decent sleep i can never tell Other then that I had a terrific day writing everyone and enjoyed my walks alone My meal alone in Twiggs surrounded by people so it wasnt like being alone in my room and enjoying the home cooked dinner at the soup kitchen Even though I didnt talk to anyone so I was alone All I know and want for Christmas is the snow I never learned to ski I dont sled or ice fish I just walk around getting lost in the vivid beauty of it The moods and lighting the silence and ferocity sometimes maybe thats when Im happiest that or the rain
8:37 p.m. - 2011-12-20
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