orgami's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Jump........................three missing days Lori napping from nine oclock night autumn air four days dishs need doing I threw my coffee pot at the took hours and yet was meditative the expresso is thick and I pour the chocolate bunni syrup in and some milk from the carton and a tablespoon of sugar bring it up here and park it at the edge of the table so it doesnt spill on the motherboard pop two 222 generics for the back and shoulder waiting for that smouldering sensation of it all and then the sick feeling and eventually a level that is not pleasant but beats feeling beat to shit i put the quilt on my bed tired of just sleeping on the matress stuffed between the walls just the coil springs like stacked slinkys the other quilt atop of me and the cat as large as a bowling ball whom I let sleep on a narrow slip otherwise we just fall in the middle of the old fold down bed couch cat litter bits that I vacum up every other day and scrub the floor so its manageable I dream Im home.that everyone is alive and unchanged except for me Im like I am right now sideuburns goatee the hair that never grows past my shoulders and breaks off saves in haircut fees but I envy those that can grow theirs long my gary oldman face My Leo character from Bladerunner face aging the blue grey eyes still intense the long narrow nose still pointing and my weak chin mother dying somewhere maybe in the hospital so much like me her crew afraid of her and yet love her or the idea of her my fear is Im just the same nothing calm about us except that brooding watchful moodiness shegoes its just between chloe and i who goes first then dad buried in his graveyard he wanted built for the rez four days working and running the bike sit outside and watch the clouds my new cheap overpriced air conditioner dripping water rumbling away friday weekend coming u tube music to keep me happy happiness happiness is the bliss 9:37 p.m. - 2012-08-16 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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