orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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not neo
in a different landscape of the mind lately.. a break from the alcohol and although creative fires flare the right brain ..its a cost to the life and brain and health and soul rot..
maybe I cant write sober there are images that settle through the silences colours of emotion that reach the depths beyond mere fingertips We are closed away the door between night and day I visit only in the dreams before dawn before Lilly nudges me awake with her nose for her walk under the underpass with Max not awake and not in dreams the snow catching the periphery interest of my thoughts as they charge down the trail pulling me along ive always walked dogs alone and none of them ever returned with me but chose to run off until the hour was up when they remembered me probably the leash is a purpose that keeps us together like an agreement of mistrusts We will draw you along because we dont believe you will ever take us out again I will not let you go because your happy smiles you shall take with you across the busy street and through the woods chasing the deer that rustle in the dark parts of the old road we walk I think of the simple happiness of being tethered to mere principle of logic then ideal of freedoms the wind cuts through my jacket and my exposed hand gripping both their leads the ring finger spinner painfully held taut against the bone wincing but it takes my mind from some hallway Im walking through..back to here the leaves on the old mossy pavement the limbs of the trees where the headlights sweep through on the upper roadbed...the climb to the overpass the trunks like a lodge holding up the tangle of roof just needs the torchs the burning brands the dogs huddled at the door resting I have them now where they dont bark dont give away our position so easily I carry no light no smokes no phone we travel by touch beneath my feet they by their smell the trail we have come to know so well the melancholy walks with me like an old friend and I accept this now finding within it a humility that I substituted with such cheap false bravado Ive taken to stopping and rubbing my mittens on their fur and they turn to see me in the dark their shapes their muzzles but they go back to listening all about holding their nose for the stories the tales that they can remember when we are in when the gas furnace rushs air and the blankets soothe my unease
1:15 a.m. - 2012-11-25
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