orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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..............AWNING...............
wind is around it dragging its flayed edges the sun has struck it
I'm trying to read and I cant get past the first few paragraphs so I give up and drink my large Yirgacheffe sweet from the two brown sugars I love to stir in and spend minutes dissolving the crystals in its hot creamy depths with a wafer thin wooden stick there is nothing I would want for more then to finish a moment sitting across from her I can feel the propane heater and see the lights on the old urban trees along the street This busy bar beneath the falling night...the patio and our hunger to consume the distance between us except we are caught in the moment awkward..skirting about the issues never settling...timid and happy to just do this dance..light and with motion..feeling out all the years to see what was real....ten years come and gone...It really changes people...marriage children job... im still picking tins from the road to get coffee and hitchiking... shes got her late model wagon.. The red hair and the dark brows.. I look at her eyes behind the long lashs the mascara..they are the same....nothing changed..leaning forward her face in the light from the bar..pale and waiting as always.. and yet. We dont kiss..we dont hold hands or play footsies..Just watch each other and sip our coffee She orders me dinner...Im skinny then My hair isnt that long like now...Im not who I am now...Im still the same lost soul who got on the train and rode down through the night to land there for a visit long ago..The snow falling down through the tall dark trees on campus..the busy highway heading down the ravine a block over the trains still calling far away.. I can tell she wants to cry and I feel frustrated I have no easy words So many would embrace and laugh tell jokes and go dancing or hold hands and walk..find a corner somewhere and make love...It would not be me..Im hungry but not for dinner.. I remember the softness of her mouth how it travelled and caressed and tasted along the route of my skin and my hands how they slid across her shoulders and along her arms down her sides across her stomach to her thighs we didnt speak much then either the candles flickering and an all night radio station playing softly the bed quilts beneath us snow falling slow and powerful in the hush of the city glow the wind is picking up the awning ripples like a dark birds wing I have to get going walk along the street and try to not think about her but its all I do......
11:17 p.m. - 2012-12-11
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