orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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SKRATCH
oh you spoke the tan telephone in the darkened room swallowed up in my moral decay and drinking gin till the ghosts came in
the showers of torrent to cleanse me the television like a light of reason sending its backdrop laugh track the letters to the library where i lived each hour each day soaking up the dream dreaming the ghost while the snow fell in the cold end of autumn the stars glittering like the puddles breaking beneath the tender streetlights i was so far and beyond the gone then living and not know who further i had been reading your old letters now..the song links the care you crafted and how i was so busy unravelling all the knots you were like a kite moving higher and higher till you were out of my reach sadness and beautiful lana del rey now not even your songs.. but its you an american version i felt poorly when i was drunk every day and now im sober no want to drink there are no answers there no help so the next answers are the old madness come arriving i hope not that land is a buzzkill but i feel the weight of it.. so i watch inspired movies like bringing out the dead suckerpunch etc.. because those are others lives and stories.. not mine... i dont even know anymore or care about any of that... a scar that hurts still your letters tender and full of youthful happiness and now you are gone.. like a ghost.. away... cutting the trees and a dumpster in the google pic you would not do that so who is left.. who is removing what you loved and where did your love remove you too? and at the time.. i was not even there anyway but lost in my head.. my heart lost so what did it matter nothing to do but dig in like any good surviving wolf does.. watch the stars and try to not dream the same vividness again.. but i know and i hope i dont see you there i want you to be wherever you are want to keep these letters forever... because everything i love slips away somehow someway i want to stay though becaue maybe you will come back
even though im not worth it
12:38 a.m. - 2014-07-15
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