orgami's Diaryland
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lash
i want to delete all my worthless shit but for all the anger is just filling up with the dark of bleakness
what the hell was it all for.... i missed so much so formal as my latest woman writes im not even real and they are.. more real then i am wish i just didnt care but i do.. thus not deleting my shit because it does matter.. i wrote her tons of letters somewhere she is.. not writing me...
too many muses.. they are all jealous part of belonging in such a fashion is they own you not your heart.. they just own you seek you out ask..why not me.. why not love me like you love her? when in reality it was not about love.... and now..when i am feeling something ..huh..its nothing dust..old letters nothing in my life is real even though im in reality..my life story is crap vague put together a complete mythology im very freaking depressed and angry not that depressed not that angry but you know... im writing about it and i feel it.. thats the crappy part of this trip.. why why why did i not see the letters. why now.. see them....feel them.. formal pompous male ego shit.... i do hate myself i do love myself i sound like everybody else and thats what i hate the most... hurt... like that hole song.. i hope you ache like i ache.. so there.. i ache hope yer happy..
12:57 a.m. - 2014-07-15
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