orgami's Diaryland
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overcast..and colder...
waiting...on.. all the layering one more day till pay one more day for meds enumeration
which the doc forgot or didnt fill in...scripts.. at the pharmacy waiting on that if she got it last night will she fill it or wait till today to roll in...and she had a bad cold but is die hard dedicated to the place someone who cares who has a brilliant mind and I wake up from this long sleep full of dreams feeling it all take my meds which were suggested and feel pretty shakey but was that before or after the affects its like jumping into the water the moments when im not sure if im uspide down sinking or floating upward still turning submerged the old non medicated me was wild full of noise thoughts rambles and sizzling my right hand shaking good but im also running heavy on ideas...chasing thoughts like before and i remember all my friends or chums i talked too about their medications what they hated such as the need to eat your stomach on some make you hungry need sweets..something off meds is horrible the spin up and spin out and crashes more deeper troubling and the coping mechanisms less and less forgiving im trying it though i want this to work somehow to keep my job..my home..my family...my routines..as best i can..... listening to old u tube videos and finding music i had not thought about in years and years childhood on..and not in the nostelgic way but in a manner of experience i can feel the sun through the trees and the dirt..the sound of boats on the lake and voices carrying on the summer days..the sounds of our life clearly.. and im seeing clearly too all what people were giving me along the way too.. breadcrumbs that made the entire loaf of bread...a sharing of intel in a single phrase..song.... the more non sensical it seems the more sensical it really is.. gotta make some calls and try to get the show going here...got my pack i left at a chums with the cleaner and such in it....too tired to do anything last night.....off meds i dont feel the tiredness...on meds i feel when i should be tired..etc.... that part makes sense.. other then that things going as planned ..
9:26 a.m. - 2014-10-01
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