orgami's Diaryland Diary

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bitter and bitter

exhausted....and still things
are just dishevelled
not even a fashion
just a way of feeling
of living lately

but of course
its just
that way

dog shots..inspections due
cleaning stove..keeping down
here tidy
the usual..

work was go go today
dug in
boss shared homemade
dinners from evening
before

they believe in me
still
when everyone else
is exasparated

zoomed through
and somehow
got paperwork
managed
and groceries home
on the bike
having to stop
and tie the potatoes
to the hendlebars
carry everything
in one arm

arrive home to an
angry old lady
we never relate
dont seem to have
a functioning
relationship

makes me feel normal
almost

should have just left
eight years ago
but I wouldnt have
job or good things
I have stuck it out
with

go figure

love is not firework
romantics
or even caring sometimes

just a holding pattern
where you at least know
the other person

better and better

got food..got the job
still...got the dog...

6:58 p.m. - 2014-10-07

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