orgami's Diaryland
Diary
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sexual orient
feel so old outdated moded my silly faux jacket and art bike my plaster dusted spatter pants and here listening to music Joy Division Shadowplay awesome song words the drums the guitar i revel in its rich apathy and now Doors Soul Kitchen Jim Morrions voice most famous sadly that his read poems on tape and little poem books fell flat his blues songs never up as this and others and "Send me an Angel" by some band from New Zealand or someplace 1981 I was fifteen that summer and severely depressed alone at my fathers country home with the toys the guns the alcohol the all night radio sitting in the front seat of the two door LTD FORD 1973 brown on brown later it was Doors when I feel down or feel my souls ache I come to this music which is often I wish I had freinds I could call up and say come to the coffee shoppe for a talk come out to the bar for a sip and a tale however I have no one really just my Lori and we are so strange together such seperate worlds we come from I like her for this the difference and i am talking more to people who are in management positions again people who know the know how the citys currents really run Not the face bought some new aftershave today run out of Yves St Laurent Addidas a black box with a tiny football logo on it five bucks at Wal Mart It smells really good though I remember when I bought seventy five dollars for colonge when I sold real estate with Carolee on weekends the tie the suit the shoes back to the music Interpol Cmere feel like tearing apart my heart stuffing it full of morphine softening up the shards of memorie falling in brilliant colours like raining stained glass all the road stories comsuming themselves with histories inside my head all the beds in which I conquered my women or was conquered laying collapsed run out with the effort and lust chilled my mind suffused with chemicals released like a frothing river run fumbling in the middle quieting the static of my head dopamine explosion receptor uptake sexual gratification and release the pleasure so wanton so good like filling in my eyes with colour of sunsets on the lake the smiling eyes of my loves the tears the candles still guttering and nights windows open reach for the Pernod sip another beer run a hand along the warmth of my girl the breasts the stomach the mound long legs and sweet small toes and darkness falling into dreams exhausted mornings smile creasing nights silk curtian emerging like a hot orgasm
10:42 p.m. - 2008-06-19
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