orgami's Diaryland Diary

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always suprises me when..

ive been away from here for more
then six days....

because it means im out of my schedule
and routine..which is amazing..

i have tons of free time for my age..
single basically cohabitat
because im very unattractive...have no
social skills that i want to work at..
and i get most of my pleasure from being
around in systems of one sort of another..
this strange surreal basic package of life..

no library as much either....

time constraints being back here...

not locked into being downtown now that
probation is over and im not hitting
the meetings as much...and cash flow
has been very low so i cant float this
pocket of change for coffee and buses
although i did live high on that hog
for awhile......

and got off this shitter of late...sitting there feeling like taking a shit....hung up on people that stall out when i get about them...put up their hand... i hand over what i have to exist here....that kind of have to have a shit...and deal with everyone elses shit for a long long long time...studying...so now studying is over..most people just bitch about crap and shove you in the box of some kind..get what they want...you give it because you look good..it feels good..what they do or dont do to you..and most people just hate working at doing something new to change the system.....

blah blah blah as gary oldman says
on that great commercial for the phone..
of which i have one and its costing me forty a month to have one connection..

mostly i just use the fucking thing for a camera knowing its just a shit storm of information..location locator...etc...so i just write stuff...the ordinary blah blah like now here.......the poetry is coming along great.....other sites....

anyway ive got some small interests out there that maybe i might be interested in......other then that its just going to be a stupid assed summer of handing
it over and im getting sick of that..
and im bored of what ive been doing anyway
..

could be an interesting summer..

4:24 a.m. - 2014-06-12

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