orgami's Diaryland Diary

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the fan purrs in the window..
i dreamt and slept fallen exhausted
in the room...my room

apolcalypse now playing over and
over on the cd...

the kid returned home
venturing out...
her prospect partner not a great
supporter...
some people are a buzzkill and promise
large and deliver poorly..
the spoiled and most broken
are like this..

wealth creates the entitlement without
effort..ive done my effort then
and now..

the mother here is like this
respect a strange animal
but one that requires nutrition or it
will consume the dreams
the ego..the love..the visions...

but so it goes..
and i admire that i keep going
on becoming stronger from the
fast of romance..of love..
an admiration that grows within
for the skills and gifts that i
work with....

let them feed from the hand of
the great providers they seek
but how its not working
either...

i feel the males hate me..
how can i get them to work with
me.....not they...

details and attention to much
its all hard work....
and the front...illusions of a life
people build forever...challenge
them...and they fight far too hard
for things...kick out the back brace behind it all and it falls like a house of cards....

revenge and vendattas then

but then they are exposed...
angry and on the move..
and if one cannot move from holding
everything in place with everything..
sometimes things are rusty and not too trusty...

im merely practical...
and intuitive and
rather brilliant
on my own after all..

spending years letting
me reflect enough to know
what is untruth
and what is truth..

im still hunting for the great
romance...
seen the great dazzling follies
and followed them...

fakes ultimately..

beautiful fakes but fakes...

where now i know the beauty
but only know can i see it...

its well been worth the wait...

4:59 a.m. - 2014-08-03

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