orgami's Diaryland Diary

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WHY IT MAKES SENSE ALL THE NON SENSE>>>>>

Chelsea Wolfe and King Dude!!
Nick Cave...my old books..
poetry site crashed....
again..

lost a thousand poems
on the old system
thank god I had have no
plans to publish anyway

and now the new site crashed
so another few hundred
per say may be gone..

not interested fully in
writing
all this down or printing
it all out

like I used to keep all
the old physical writings
in garbage bags
and then burn them in
the stoves or
throw them out
to make new space
keep writing

its the keeping writing
that keeps
the days alive
the weeks go by
the months have
meaning

and about me
people have real lives
my last real relationship
ended eight years ago
like marriages
the courtship
the wooing

like a ship voyage
im the pot washer
deck scrubber
but all the while
watching the captian
hit reefs here and
there
and how they really
dont like it when
others can delve
decipher for them

so I carry the bags
home and hand it over
never getting the
passions
or care
and yet how this position
keeps me close
to everyone alone the
line and how they
still throw their claws
into me
and their puppet
to control
entertain
extol

people come to the table
a lot
so I dont have the one
special one to me
only
I dont give concessions
to just be the lackey
mere

but of another...

anyway
Love would be wonderful
but lust seems to mere
also be an instrument
with an easily exchange
policy
hearts are more complex
and I find the more
creative personage
seem to make worlds of
this

mine was always politics
and still is even at
this age
small treasures
and treats

12:12 p.m. - 2014-12-20

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