orgami's Diaryland Diary

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moribound happiness

empty smokes and cereal bowls
milk from the food bank
mixed..tastes like blood..
remember smashing my face
a few times
the copper mettalic
not unpleasant taste
salt and pain

smokes full of crumbs
check for meds...
keep them there..
epival for mood
seizure..
keep smokes dry
keep pills dry
in pockets
wouldnt think
get them wet
snows rains..
keep smokes dry
oh ho ho ho..
dont you know

happiness
check..
practise smiling
get the smile
lines
happening
cant fake the
folds...
like new clothes
you stand out
with your mask
face

Listening on a SAT
nite to cool west
coast amerikan music
before that NICK CAVE
chelsea wolfe and
Lana....beautiful
fucked up Lana

love was never so good
then or now
age is nothing
the body crumbling
but not the heart
not the strength
to give a fuck
even if its snowing
and dark and peaceful

riding the dark wave
of all the resistance
the passive agressive
dreams

standing in its
waves about...
like a shower
after midnight
the fan rattling
the exhausted
heat and steam

like a dreamstate
numbed out
fall into bed
and pass
out....

10:47 p.m. - 2014-12-20

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